My world without you would be empty
Void of emotion at all ..
Full of love you had made me
Full of love for a Stranger ..
Strange lands
Faceless names
Drift in and out of my weary mind
To be so far away from one
The one who holds my heart
My world is dreary without you near
Dark and worth nothing ..
Curled up alone
one again
I softly dream of you
of being with you
of touching you ..
My roses wilt and die without the
light your smile brings
without the music
your laughter makes ..
I stretch across oceans
and wrap my arms around the world
to hold you close to my heart.
I love you
Sorry .. Not real good .. not even good at all ... Just pointless thoughts draining from a silly mind ..
Rainy
Thursday, November 28, 1996
Tuesday, November 5, 1996
Gasping For More - CJB
To Kim
Anyway my little jam tart in a nurses uniform, I finished this for you last night when I couldn't sleep. It's just for you and I hope you like it.
Gasping For More
Leaning over the bridge and crossroad between life and death,
Staring at the highway cool and quiet.
The lights dazzling on the harbour the way they would in your eyes.
Alone but not at the top of the world.
Out of control, my mind and body weaving all over the show.
I feel how it is to be alive but dead.
I feel the pain but am powerless to stop these feelings.
I was born of two fathers, control and defense.
And I wish I could surrender both to you in bed.
Your tender kisses and long embraces promise to make the nightmares go away.
But neither you nor the booze can wipe my memory and heal this broken heart.
Walking home like a ghost,just like your memory.
People give me uncomfortable stars and look right through me.
The way you saw over my walls and through my heart.
My footsteps are my only company,
they leave hollow echos the way you would if you left me.
No starts shine tonight and large clouds envelope the sky in darkness;
Like those possible dawns under cover.
We are like heaven and earth stretched across the sea.
We took so long to find each other,
and only touched each other briefly.
You are young at heart and I am just making a new start.
Who would have thought I'd end my world,
By losing myself for the last time in love and lust.
We never had a future, all we'd have is days,
And maybe long nights of shooting up bourbon, too many laughs to care.
Back on guard, control and defense are what I know best,
I have sharpened my barbs, and play the game to win.
Tattoos and scars of the heart and constant reminders
of the connection, between love and pain,
Living in the past, booze has drowned recent times,
When your eyes could drown me in their serenity.
You will never know how I really feel.
How you melted my hardened soul,
And left me gasping for more.
Luv, C.J.
November 5, 1996
Anyway my little jam tart in a nurses uniform, I finished this for you last night when I couldn't sleep. It's just for you and I hope you like it.
Gasping For More
Leaning over the bridge and crossroad between life and death,
Staring at the highway cool and quiet.
The lights dazzling on the harbour the way they would in your eyes.
Alone but not at the top of the world.
Out of control, my mind and body weaving all over the show.
I feel how it is to be alive but dead.
I feel the pain but am powerless to stop these feelings.
I was born of two fathers, control and defense.
And I wish I could surrender both to you in bed.
Your tender kisses and long embraces promise to make the nightmares go away.
But neither you nor the booze can wipe my memory and heal this broken heart.
Walking home like a ghost,just like your memory.
People give me uncomfortable stars and look right through me.
The way you saw over my walls and through my heart.
My footsteps are my only company,
they leave hollow echos the way you would if you left me.
No starts shine tonight and large clouds envelope the sky in darkness;
Like those possible dawns under cover.
We are like heaven and earth stretched across the sea.
We took so long to find each other,
and only touched each other briefly.
You are young at heart and I am just making a new start.
Who would have thought I'd end my world,
By losing myself for the last time in love and lust.
We never had a future, all we'd have is days,
And maybe long nights of shooting up bourbon, too many laughs to care.
Back on guard, control and defense are what I know best,
I have sharpened my barbs, and play the game to win.
Tattoos and scars of the heart and constant reminders
of the connection, between love and pain,
Living in the past, booze has drowned recent times,
When your eyes could drown me in their serenity.
You will never know how I really feel.
How you melted my hardened soul,
And left me gasping for more.
Luv, C.J.
November 5, 1996
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